11 months of waiting has come down to just a few hours. I must admit, I am feeling anxious. For I am about to embark on the journey of a lifetime for me. I don't know what to expect as I travel to this ancient land. I hope that it will be everything that I have built it up to be in my mind. If you have read any of my previous posts, my mind is complex. Maybe I have a better understanding of my thoughts than others. I do not know. What I do know is that I am anxious and excited for this trip. I am excited to see new lands. Excited to take my first trip out of the United States and excited to know my friends better. There is conflict in my mind about how well I want them to know me and my demons. I have a gut feeling that they will be let out for good or bad. Such is life. If you want to move forward, you need to embrace your past and who you are in the moment.